During this time..

It has been a while since I have wrote anything for you all. After enduring the past couple months in a spiritual and emotional rollercoaster ride, here I am! During this time I somehow lost my church notebook…

 

For most people this isn’t something they would truly consider a loss. In fact, they would probably think it silly to be so troubled by the missing notebook.

 

Not for me. I was devastated when I lost it. Not only was this book my favorite notebook I ever bought, but there were recent sermons I had taken notes on that encouraged me beyond what I could fathom.

 

I LOOKED EVERYWHERE!!!

I looked EVERYWHERE in the house and in my car. It was no where to be found. I then realized that the last time I remembered writing in the notebook I had tagged along with my family in the truck. Unfortunately, the truck wasn’t in the garage. It was in Colorado with my mom and sister..

 

Finally, they came home and I searched that car from the inside out!

Still no notebook.

I came to the conclusion and made it official that there was no hope and no use of finding this thing.

So I stopped looking for it.

Just a Little at a Time..

This week has been full of work, revival and much, much more. For some odd reason out of all the weeks I had to choose from, it was this week I wanted to do a deep clean in my bedroom. So I made it a plan clean a little at a time and finish all the work Saturday (today).

 

I have gone through almost every box of mine in this room today and decided to fill one of the boxes with some bags that was taking up space near my bed. Before placing the bags in the box I looked inside and guess what I found?

I FOUND MY FAVORITE NOTEBOOK!!!

 

Let me say that it has almost been two months since I have seen this notebook and I have finally found it!!

 

I am not writing this to share my exciting news about my lost but now found notebook. (Okay, maybe I am)

I write to you today because as soon as I saw my blue notebook in my bag, Holy Spirit revealed something crazy to me.

 

It’s Been Hidden..

Whatever it is you might have been searching for has been right in front of you this entire time. It has just been hidden within the waiting. It’s been waiting to be revealed.

 

Maybe you’re the one who has been in a waiting season. You’ve been waiting right outside a door ready for it to open. You’ve tried braking through the door, picking the lock, and even yelling for someone (God) to unlock it from the other side. Nothing has been working, so all you can do is wait.

 

Do you realize that God has been doing something incredible within you during this waiting? He has been cleansing within your heart, mind and soul.

 

The reason why you’ve felt uncomfortable and on what feels like a rollercoaster ride is because of this deep clean happening within you. Things you have tucked away in the closets of your heart and mind have been opened and dusted out.

The Hidden Doorway..

God doesn’t just do a deep cleansing in your heart, mind and soul, but he also cleanses your eyes to see things differently. Whenever God cleans your spiritual eyes you will begin to see that there has been a hidden door in the hallway you have been standing in. All this time what you thought was what you needed turns out to be the one thing you never really needed.

The hidden doorway has been hidden this entire time because if you had walked through the doorframe of this door, you would not be able to see things the way God intends on you to see it. You wouldn’t have the space in your heart, mind and soul to receive and store and gain strength from if it wasn’t for the cleansing God has placed you through.

 

During the cleansing time, yes, it hurts in its own way, but the love you have with God grows deeper and deeper. Not just the love you have towards God, but the faith you have in Him gains strength.

 

To the one..

So whoever you are that is needing this encouragement, don’t be fooled by the door right in front of you. What are you doing while in the hallway waiting for the God given door to open? Are you going to allow God to cleanse you from the inside out? Or are you going to waste away the days in the hallway in anger and un-forgiveness?

 

-Alicia